what makes u feel guilty ? 

what makes u feel bad ?

isn't it the thing u most wanted  before ? 

my self 

as i felt today 

so some can't see this ... 

oil on canvas

a landscape near Firuzkuh is village near my city Tehran

not easy ! and not finished i may change something 

....

some asks me why do u painting this much?

u know there is one thing i have and this is painting now a days i find living in tehran too hard

people are poor and diplomacy and .. are so fucked up...

so i am one of these people too i had many hope some years ago but today i feel like an old 

this is it ..life! i accept and appreciate  it 

i have nothing ..

MAYBE:

 i am not reach enough to get a house for myself  

 i am not cute enough to find a girlfriend 

 i am not amazing enough to be a famous 

i am not lucky enough to live a better life

SURE 

I AM MAN ENOUGH TO LIVE AND LOVE AND DIE AS A PAINTER

THIS IS THE WAY I WOULD NEVER CHANGE IT EVEN IF I AM NOT
GOOD ENOUGH TO BE AN ARTIST

self portrait on canvas 

not finished yet 

 i can put some extra colors on the face ...

i was fat but now a days am going to be thin again 

3 weeks ago i had a little panic attack like a little epilepsy so that was so bad 

i feel better now sometimes i feel good "if  bastards around me let me rest enough some people are..."

i feel angry and week and i need a vacation and peace 

so this is my portrait of an unknown frightened  and week situation   ...

but i feel like a strong man inside because i believe in the way i am...

have a beautiful time